A disorder affecting the ability to understand speech, in noisy environments, following directions and distinguishing between similar sounds.
In 2015, I found out about my pituitary adenoma. My brain has experienced changes that are unpleasant since then. The worst has been in the past year and a half.
I am unable to focus with any background noise. Playing the radio or someone talking is hell for me. I have to use my 3M Noise Reduction Headphones to have any sort of silence so I am able to focus. This drives me completely bonkers. If I am watching TV and someone talks to me, I have to pause the TV in order to hear and understand what that person is trying to say. Then my brain only comprehends half of what they actually say. The other half gets twisted somehow while I am trying to focus on the words.
My own words get twisted trying to speak. While reading, the words get mixed up kind of like dyslexia but I am not dyslexic. This makes reading and speaking difficult because I see words differently in my head. Some days are worse than others.
Most people that have APD are born with it. It is almost unheard of for an adult to develop the disorder unless they have had head trauma. The front and back of my skull is cracked and has been for years but has nothing to do with APD. My issue is to do with Chucky my pituitary adenoma. Since it has been a couple years since my last MRI, I can only assume that it has grown, slowly I hope.
At this point, the neurologist said it isn’t large enough to be removed without complications. If or when Chucky is to be removed, I will have to be on hormone replacements for the rest of my life. Currently I am not taking any additional hormones because I am not able to see an Endocrinologist, thanks to my insurance.
I am hoping that one day soon, I will be back to my old self. I enjoyed being able to focus on 5 conversations at once and multitasking. My memory was great. I want to feel like me again.
